Sunday, May 20, 2018

Just stuff...

I really don't have much to say today. I have accomplished getting in at least a 2 mile walk every day for the last 8 days and eating better has paid off in a 3 lb loss! I have been to my daughters spring concert, Rylie's Genius Hour presentation where she impressed the hell out of me and yesterday we spent the day downtown at the annual Children and the Arts festival. I'm also dealing with dueling Greatest Showman soundtracks playing on repeat for the last week!

The girls sang in the spring concert and their songs were Dust in the Wind, Yellow Submarine and One (not the U2 song). They did a great job as did all the kids in band and chorus. But for me, the most momentous event was Rylie asking me to french braid her hair before the concert! I had to take sneak pictures of her because, well, she's 13 and a brat about pictures now!



I decided to continue getting up at 5:30 am and get my walk in before bringing the girls to school. It's been gorgeous so far every morning and my neighborhood is a beautiful place to walk. I have decided to try to take a picture every morning of something new or something neat I notice. Even though I have been walking this neighborhood for over 6 years I always notice something new or just relish how peaceful it is.

Sunset



Sunrise




Rylie and her friend worked on a voluntary project to study the history of LGBTQ+ prejudice and they presented it at the Genius Hour at their school this past Thursday. The Genius Hour was for student directed learning. kids could work in groups or on their own to delve into a subject they were interested in and learn more about. The project presented were all really good and creative. I was so proud of Rylie (as was her teacher) for delving into such a deep subject and treating it with respect and grace. She did an excellent job in her presentation as well.

Yesterday was overcast and clouds threatened rain but it was still a great day at the Children and the Arts festival. It is a festival that takes over the buildings and green spaces downtown and showcases arts of all kinds, singing, dancing, acting, artwork etc. all involving children or for the benefit of children. There is also a wonderful themed parade that starts at the elementary school and goes through downtown. Area schools, clubs and organizations march with floats, signs or other amazing creativity. There are food and craft vendors and it is always a great time. This year was the first time I was not participating in the parade with one of the kids so I got to watch the whole thing. Rylie walked in it with her favorite teacher from 3rd. grade and Caitie was off running around downtown with her friends.

Humoring their mother since I had just given them money for the day! LOL

The crowd waiting for the parade

 The parade theme was Pirates





So, I guess I did have a lot to say! LOL

 Anyway, enjoy your day, tomorrow is never promised!

Tuesday, May 15, 2018

Welcome to your 40's...they suck

Hind sight is absolutely 20/20. I vehemently wish I had paid closer attention to my eating habits growing up cause now, trying to change them, is like stopping Niagra Falls! UGH, it's so frustrating how my metabolism crapped out on me after having kids, my joints and body parts don't move and work quite like they used to and I wake up with new aches and pains every day.

I had a lovely, low key Mother's Day; ordered chinese on Friday night and relaxed watching The Greatest Showman with my mom. Saturday it rained, so we went and saw Infinity War at one of those theaters you can order food in, it wasn't as nice as the one I went to in GA, but the movie was INCREDIBLE!! We then grilled some steaks for dinner and watched Supergirl episodes all together. Sunday I decided I wanted  pictures with my girls and my mom as it had been about 11 years since we'd had photos all done together. It was a beautiful day and I THOUGHT we got some good shots, it turns out my giant pumpkin head (due in large part to my second chin) made the pictures cringeworthy for me. I decided not to delete all of them because composition wise there were some nice shots, but damn, 43 does not look good on me! I had already begun trying to eat better and move my body more so now I am making sure it's not just a "when I feel like it thing". I vow not to have a pumpkin head next Mother's day!

Anyway, it was nice to spend time with my mom and to have Steve home for the weekend. We are still plugging away at the house hunting and are both getting thoroughly frustrated and discouraged. Our house is in the final stretch of purchase and everything is moving along as planned for the June 20th closing. Keep sending us your good house finding mojo please, we need all the help we can get!

Keep plugging along, tomorrow is never promised!











Thursday, May 10, 2018

Catharsis and reclaiming my time

So, that lovely white house has been scrapped. We rescinded our offer due to their lack of cooperation regarding the very serious issues needing repair. It was a stressful and sad process getting to that point and once we did we didn't really feel any better as there just seemed to be no good options out there for us. We started questioning whether certain aspects in a home were really that important to us and if we could settle for something less. I can't imagine living on a tiny lot in a big neighborhood, I would feel so claustrophobic and exposed. I do not want to be able to have a conversation with my neighbor while we both sit on our own patios! I used to fantasize about life living in a condo or apartment in a place like downtown Boston or even just downtown Peterborough, being able to walk everywhere and enjoy the vibrancy of a downtown...alas, I'm really not that person. So we were panicking a little thinking we'd have to settle for a smaller lot and then spend the next year or so finding something better. As of right now we have two really good options. Neither are slam dunks but both are pretty darn close and really, to me, the most important element is the property and both have wonderful property, both a little over 5 acres and beautiful. So, we start the process over again and hopefully this time it sticks. The other nice thing about these houses is that they are both brand spanking new! So as not to jinx myself again I won't be sharing the houses until we choose one and have a contract on it!

Steve comes home this weekend, YAY!! He will have to deal with the issue of my new habit of taking over our entire Cal. King bed but I don't think he'll mind! LOL

Last night I participated in my very first Town Meeting Open Session and coincidentally my last 😔
It was quite invigorating even though it was quite inefficient in the beginning getting everyone  registered to vote. I suspect it is not always so but since last night the big issue on hand was a bond issue for a new library, the place was packed! I had originally planned to stay only for the library vote but after hearing some of the community people speak their concerns, I decided not to leave the fate of all the items on the agenda to a bunch of tight fisted, short sighted, old people! Seriously people, when I say our town is filled with old people, I am in no way exaggerating. The fastest expanding market here is Senior living facilities, they keep expanding! It's grey hair city here! Now, before you start screaming "Ageism", I have no issue with elderly, they are a great asset to a community...unless they have no vision for keeping the town vibrant and growing. We have an issue with declining students in the schools causing discussions about closing some area elementary schools. We need to think long term and make this town more attractive to young families but that means moving into the 21st century with improvements to the infrastructure. Blah, blah, blah, right? I love Peterborough and would love to see it continue to thrive. It really is a great place to raise kids in a safe and secure community. Anywhoo, The new library bond passed as did most of the other big ticket improvements to the downtown area, so I am happy I participated. I kind of wish I had been participating this whole time. I always vote but never bothered with Town meeting, regretfully.

The child drama saga continues and tonight I get to make it worse by telling Caitie she can't go to her fiends party tomorrow night. I will likely be the "worst mom ever" and I'm sure she will call me all kinds of names in her journal. Sigh...

I have been reclaiming my time from technology lately and it has been wonderful! I had started cutting down on FB scrolling but found I was still doing too much so, inspired by a friend, I deleted the app from my phone to force the issue more. It has been an adjustment to enjoy just "being" and to not be entertained every second! I have spent more time outside, more time with my dogs, listening to more music and dancing and I've been working on an especially difficult craft project that has required patience and concentration. The project has been excellent in helping me process the stress of house hunting and handling a 12 year old devil. I am really happy with how it turned out and Rylie was super thrilled with the results too (they are a gift for her new room in TN)!

I hope all of you have a wonderful weekend, enjoy your family, friends and time on this earth...tomorrow in never guaranteed! 💕

Oh, yeah, I got to finish my tattoo work on my left shoulder. The triangles are where my old band was. This was free drawn on my arm by my very talented tattoo artist. I love it!


Rylie and I got some ice cream before we went to see Black Panther in town and this rainbow graced us with it's presence!

Hanging out in town, enjoying some of my favorite spots:


Art catharsis...


Exercise catharsis...


Participating in town government!


Friday, May 4, 2018

My 12 year old is worse than your 3 year old...

I am getting into the groove of quiet days filled with time to do whatever I want. Sitting in the sun on the deck (HOLY CRAP THE SUN CAME BACK), playing with the dogs, crafting, and spending time with friends.

I am NOT in the groove of dealing with a 12 year old hormonal shit storm. You would think I would be, having just dealt with it a little over a year ago, but not so much. Rylie pretty much whiplashed me and I'm still reeling from her comedown to semi rational child. Caitie promised me she wouldn't do this, she swore she would be easier. I believed her, she's always been a pretty easy going kid. I suppose she's due for a rebellion. My saving grace is that it's only one of them, if both were struggling with their evil twin side, I'm pretty sure I'd be in a padded room speaking in tongues. I just keep repeating "I love my children, I love my children..."

I have finished my last private lesson client and am down to only one daycare puppy. It was sad but also a bit relieving as now I can focus on the enormous shit storm of finding a house in TN. Yeah, that's right, that lovely white house I was so excited about has turned into Amityville Horror and we are on the brink of walking away from it. Today is literally the last day for the sellers to decide if they are going to accept our terms for all the repairs or tell us to go pound sand. The repairs are not simple fixes either, mold was found in the air quality test and in the basement crawl space, a skylight is rotting and leaking and the HVAC units are original and there are no service records for them, oh and the stove came up as a possible recall hazard...to name a few! Our options outside of this house are minimal they are either on tiny lots or super expensive. I hate this process with every fiber of my being!

Mother's day is coming up, I've got my fingers crossed that I can make it through without being huddled in a corner crying! I've got hopes of a nice pedicure with my mom, a road trip to the Flume Gorge and taking pictures of the kids and I with my mom...yeah, we'll see how that goes! Either way, I guess I'm lucky to get to spend time with my mom, I know many people that do not, including my husband. I am always acutely aware of the loss of Carol at Mother's day, when the day is centered around me and my mom. I wish all those that have lost their mother's, love and peace on this potentially heartbreaking day.

I do have a new goal in life...it's a pretty lofty one too. I have vowed to be able to identify which show each clip in the opening credits of every season of friends is from! I am currently on season 3 (for the bajillionth time) and was doing well until, at episode 13, they changed all the opening clips! NOW, I have the question in my head of do they do that for every season? Now I have to go to episode 12 and 13 of season 1 and 2 to solve the mystery and make note of it for all other upcoming seasons. This is a big task, but I'm up for the challenge! Wish me luck in this useless endeavor! Honestly though, I can't even begin to say how many times Friends has helped drag me out of funks. I can't believe how it can still make me laugh out loud! After all this time? ALWAYS! 😜

Happy Birthday to everyone I missed on FB. I hope the year ahead is filled with more sunny skies than cloudy ones for you.

Never Give up and always be kind!

Random pictures to make up for boring post!

Enjoying the sun and furry friends





New life goal...



This makes me happy too!




Thursday, April 26, 2018

Life ain't a merry go round...it's a roller coaster (Long Live Bon Jovi)

I actually hate Merry Go Rounds, have always hated them. I hate spinning rides, I get dizzy and disoriented and eventually bored! I always thought it was silly to have such cool designed animals on such a boring ride. I love roller coasters, of course as I've gotten older my body can only take so many rides in one day but I still love them! The speed, the rush, the horrible anticipation of the drop and the uncontrollable giggling. Unfortunately, the roller coaster of life in NO WAY resembles The Hulk ride at Universal (super awesome coaster BTW). It's not always giggle inducing or a rush of excitement. Sometimes those drops just keep on dropping and sometimes that climb up to it is slow and agonizing and often unnoticed until we are free falling, barely hanging on to the safety bar. I just hope that the person you have sitting next to you holds your hand through it all and makes you feel safe, or better yet, you have the strength to be your own safety net and can just barrel through those drops knowing a climb and a loop de loop is just up ahead.

I hope that with all my heart for my friend, his words to me have always been "Never Give Up", so I echo them back to him today.

I had a pretty nice weekend with Steve. The weather was gorgeous and we got to have a leisurely few days together. On Friday we puttered around, had lunch and ran errands while the kids were in school. Friday night we got to have dinner with friends and really had a great time. Saturday we all went into town and cleaned up trash along the bike trail on Summer St. to celebrate Earth Day. Sunday we took a nice drive to America's Stonhenge in Salem NH. That was really cool! Steve left Sunday night and the girls and I started Spring Break! It's been a quiet relaxing week, I've gone for walks, went for a hike with my friend Sy and her dog Thurber, took the girls to the Boston aquarium yesterday and did a fun craft night with my friend Karie, and today it is chores. I have been winding down my private lesson clients and daycare clients and after today I will only have one daycare puppy left and one more private lesson left. It feels weird to have so much extra time available, weird but nice. I have lots of craft projects planned!

The girls are enjoying their new bikes and have been riding around the neighborhood every day. Now that they have a school friend that moved into our neighborhood they've been out of the house more. This is also good because apparently 12 is the new 3 and I am not enjoying the teen angst and attitude lately. Buttons pushed daily. I know it will pass, Rylie went through this too and has since leveled out and become a pretty pleasant 13 year old. I hope her sister will follow suit!

Drama with the new house is consuming Steve and I right now. Quite a few things came back from the inspection needing to be fixed and we aren't sure how cooperative the seller is going to be. Keep your fingers and toes crossed for us, neither of us want to start this whole process over again!

Thanks for reading, here are some pictures!

Earth Day fun!



America's Stonehenge






Craft Night at Graffiti Paintbar in Nashua

 My project!